LAVENDER & NOIR
Photographer: @armz_yeg
““Discover your inner beauty & vibes.””
Uncertainty is what we are all experiencing during this time. I’m an optimistic person therefore, I’m always searching for positivity in times of darkness. I can say, during this global pandemic, it has blessed me with a moment to pause and reflect. Pause and reflect on my feelings and actions, how I communicate with others, and how I express myself. In moments of reflection, I have come to realize, I am still in the process of figuring out what and how I want to convey myself here on sammysamstyle. I love posting fashion-inspired looks and sharing my personal style, with the hope it continues to inspire others to discover their own inner beauty and what truly vibes with them. But there’s more I want to convey on this platform besides fashion and aesthetics. This is what I know to be true at this very moment. It is my calling in this lifetime to share information and inspire others to be their authentic self. What information am I meant to share? To be honest, I have no clue. I’m figuring it out as we speak.
It’s been a couple of years now, hearing the divine message from the Universe, I am meant to do something with yoga and meditation. My immediate ego-like response is to reject the idea of becoming a yoga instructor. I consistently hear it from my friends, tarot readers, and SRT therapist. YOGA! YOGA! YOGA! I’ve been practicing yoga sporadically for many years now but still to this day, I haven’t been making yoga and meditation a part of my daily practice. It does wonders for my mind, body and soul. I feel it every time I leave my yoga mat after my practice. My lame excuses are either I’m too busy, tired and to be quite honest, it’s mostly because I’m lazy. I definitely need to change this mindset! In time, I can see myself practicing yoga on a regular but I can’t see myself teaching yoga. I don’t do well with public speaking. I’m horrible when it comes to holding space and having to speak to a group of people. I remember in University, I would calculate my grade average in a course to see if I can avoid participating in a class presentation. If the big, fat zero in a project which entails me presenting doesn’t affect my final grade - peace out, baby! I’m not doing it! Presenting myself in front of a group, automatically my throat gets dry, I stumble on my words, I turn beet red, and my hands and legs repeatedly trembles. It’s not cute to be stuttering and trembling in a room full of people while trying to demonstrate Natarajasana - Dancer Pose. I have a reoccurring image embedded in my head every time I think about me being a yoga teacher. It’s winding down to the end of the class. I’m seated in lotus position in preparation to lead the chant for Aum. I take a deep breath and begin to chant and right in the middle of it, my voice begins to crack! How embarrassing would that be!!! I needed to fall back, pause and reflect to truly listen to the consistent message. Why does the Universe repeatedly relay the message of yoga to me? I can interpret the divine message as so. The message doesn’t imply that I have to become a yoga teacher. What the Universe would like me to know is when I implement yoga and meditation to my daily practice, it will align me to my greatest purpose and open new doors of opportunities for me. Therefore, in the present moment, I’m committed to making time to practice yoga and meditation. As well, I will return to Bali and complete a 200 hr yoga teacher training course. Bali is calling for me! From there, I hope to learn why yoga can be the key to unlocking my truest potential.
I want to make sure when you discover my blog and when you take a moment of your time to sift through it, you not only can see me but you get a sense of who I am on a deeper level. I hope you can feel, understand and vibe with me. That’s my desired goal. To inspire and connect. I truly believe life is moments of good and bad. Every experiences teaches you something profound. It is about the journey in itself and not the destination. I will continue to explore within, nourish my inner child and discover different aspects of myself. Through my journey, I hope you see my growth and I hope it inspires you to take charge of your life so you can manifest a fulfilling life, enriched with happiness and love.
Your girl,
Sammy
Zara - Lilac Long Dress
Photographer: @armz_yeg
